Wednesday, December 27, 2006

Hellish Heaven

Why would man never be satisied with Plato's Utopia? because of greed and luxury, he argues. Men are not content with a simple life; they are acquisitive, ambitious, competitive, and jealous. They soon tire of what they have, and pine for what they have not; and they seldom desire anything unless it belongs to others.

Isn't Heaven as it is described to us a Utopia of the sort. A garden where everything is served, all the physical needs. How are the other human needs served in Heaven though; power, ambition, competiteveness, self-esteem? or is part of being in Heaven, is that our needs change, we become content by having everything we can imagine. We seek nothing further, we have answers to all our questions, and we are fulfilled. Then my old question comes back to life; for how long? what kind of a heaven is this, where we do nothing, seek nothing, get everything, look-forward for nothing, happy with everything! For how long is that sustainable? For how long can we call that Heaven? for how long can we bare that? That is certainly not a humanly heaven. Humans would not be content with that. Life on Earth can easily turn to such a Utopia if that's all we humans need. But as Plato rightly noted, it never arrives.

Heaven then is not for us Humans as "we" are. It is a heaven for different beings. For beings that can be content by the heavenly fullfilment of their needs. It is a heaven for pure souls maybe. Souls that God collects back. Souls that can be one again with the One. So it is not a heaven for us, but for Him. Were do we go though, the remaining of us, our impurities: we go to hell.

Can Hell really be fire and pain. Endless pain. How would that be different than life? When we go to Hell, and in our endless suffering, do we ever try to improve our status there, reduce the pain, question why we went there, look for ways to turn off the fire? Do we become believers then. Will we see that sign, or like the many signs before it in life, we'll choose not to. If we don't, won't we work hard to change our destinies to get out of Hell. Does it remain Hell then, or another form of life? If we do see the sign and believe, do we get that one last chance to move to Heaven --where its really a heaven for us, but for a different part of our beings. If we remain there, accepting the endless pain, do we turn it by that into another form of heaven?

We are not reincarnated the same. We become different, and our needs and definitions must be different. So, will "I" be pleased or agonized in the hereafter, or some other form of me, and how do I relate to that thereafter then? What will be the definition of pain then? the fact of infinity?

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

She's undead

They look great together. He looks temendously happy, calmly happy.. she looks beautiful. God, he's a very lucky man. I know she died, but that looks like it was a perfect relationship. Everything ends, but not everything lasts for so long so well, and ends by a third party in a natural way like that. He will miss her, he will be sad, but he is blessed and maybe he doesn't know it. His sadness will be valuable, for something that never left him, for someone that he'll cherish and will remember forever. What they had will now be eternal. God be with him in his loneliness, but she'll keep him company, his sadness will keep him company, his memories will keep him company. He'll rediscover life, carrying his memories, searching for a reason maybe. Why did she go, why now? why was it so good? What should he look forward to? he might not find answers. He might find sadness in his questions, find sorrow in remembering her, find loneliness in looking forward. But she doesn't have to be with him for them to be together, and she might be still present helping him rediscover this life. She's never gone, she's just not there.